Sunday, 4 March 2012

updates!!!!

hey yo!!!
is me again
dont be surprise
am just actually trying my very best to achieve what i said
i wanna update my blog more frequently^^
yesterday night shift hell busy until i really wanna cry
officially work from 9pm to 9am
extra 4 hours ot..
i MUST claim all my OT in this stupid OT months
reach home then sleep for short while then have to wake up to center to attend meeting
today my best friend as well as my upline got recognize as Ruby Executive
he look so confidence up there at the stage
yea
when euu have the power of success
you can show whatever LC face euu want
cause people down the stage wont talk bad about you
they just will envy
cause im one of them too
how i wish there is one day i back to the stage that belongs to me
i need to find back my previous confidence
even today
i stand on the stage
i felt damn nervous and dont know what the shift am i actually talking about
yet
i still tried my best to SPEAK
i love the feeling that everyone claps for you after your speech
everyone showing their support to you 
and also giving you confidence
think twice
how come others people they can do it and why cant i???
yes...
if i put a little more effort
RE is not that far away from me
i need to fight
cause i have such a success uplines
which can really lead me to my success
i have dreams
everyone do
but
i dont want to be that person just standing or laying down there for dream and do nothing
and this company i found is really helping people to success
helping people to transform
helping people to believe
and giving everyone to DREAM
me and my fellow net-workers having a same dream
3 years later
we will driving our very own brand new and branded car [oooo]
go wherever we want to
do whatever we want to
dream whatever we can
that the feeling
i really dont want to stand here and dream and wait for my dream
i wanna chase for my dream
to ensure it come true earlier then i though!
i know it can and i ensure it can!
this is my last months on TRA
im so excited for my last result!!!
and also cant wait to be recognize as RE
together with my dear 283
and then that the time for us to get our BIKINI ready
for a sunshine beach trip with all the ST $4000 achiever
ready
get
set 
go!!!!!!!
fight
for my own future
for my family
for my DREAMS

dear 283,
show me more on your confidence
people that will affect you
just left him behind
remember
{成功的人是先相信才看到
一般的人是看到了才相信
失败的人是看到了也不要去相信}
since we know where we are
so
坚持到底
we do very envy dexter today
and i believe that we can be another him on stage!!!!
believe the system
believe people that brings you in
believe people that works together with you
and believe people that success together with you and me
[ oooo ]
not a impossible dream
dare to dream for ur dream
we can success to achieve it
go double
remember what we really want!!!
ganbate

to people who bring me in
thank you so much
you guys really effect me alot
from the very ignoring until now extremely enjoy!!
thank to you all
remember
now herewith my promise
i will success
together with all my up and down line
i want success
and i know i can

dexter!!!!
...you r my target...

Saturday, 3 March 2012

updates!

yes human,
im here updating my blog now
wakakakakakaka
*there can be miricleeee when euu belieeeeveee~~~*
lame*
yesterday was not in a good mood
is just like everything come to me and made me boom
and whenever i moody
sure always all the Mxxxxs block my ways
i really dont know how they get their license from
some more can horn me with they think they're right!!!
wtf
i swear i drive safe!
i swear with no finger crossing pls :)
and finally i reached hotel
same thing
that something true
when euu decided to leave a property... whatever euu see and do you will just like feeling 
!!!!!WTF!!!!!
i really really hope that i can leave here ASAP
but can someone really teach me how is the fastest way?
i have alot of dreams and thought! 
yet dont know which to follow
i hope the person who looking for a assistance is not joking with me
cause to be his assistance is really a big challenge and to make my folio thick
beside
i also think of go for bridal make up
but my mom said i can only take that as parttime!
she ordered so i have to follow
yet will still go for the make up class once a week as parttime study^^
then
so i think alot beside above mentioned
seeeeeeeeeeee
im now in a age of confusion? 
oh no~~~~~~~~~
so what should i really do huh??
sleep and dreams! 
hahaha
that easy
continue dreaming
me likey..

Friday, 2 March 2012

habits?!

yes..
i do admit i still miss a person that hurt me so deeply
so what?
atleast i dare to admit and not everyone do!
im not gonna hide my whatever stupid feelings is
i just wanna shout out 
"hey, i miss euu like crazy, do euu???"
but 
but 
but
come back to reality
i wont do so
cause its useless
and really no point for me to do so
although i miss
sometimes missing someone without acknowledge him or her  is very nice
trust me
it will make ur day with :)
but it gain my tears too :')
no worries
im alright and im fine^^
i enjoy my life now too without him beside me
i have my precious time for me to fight for my future now!
go go go
i wanna transform from munz to PRADA!!!
hahahaha
no joke
my name sooner will become Prada Looi^^
i just hope to change my life to be a better life
i wish he have a better life tooooo
yes
im still concern
but no big deals
we still FRIEND i suppose
i just hope
no more tears for sadness
i want it all for joy!!!!!
and is really time for me to decide what i really want now!!!
think!!
think 
think
and
THINK!!!!

new

changed my blog color~~
nothing special..
i just want it to be simple yet colourful ^^
so fast and its March now
i leave my blog death again~~
><
im just really that lazy sometime
i mean always!!!
hahahahahahahaha
okay..
i promised that i will keep update my blog to myself
i
just dont want my memories all left behind
that y this blog's purpose is!
yet
im just too lazy to update
excuse not acceptable!!!
i command myself to update blog frequently!!!
is a MUST!!!!!
^^

Monday, 6 February 2012

04.02.2012

今天是新年的最后第2天了
照常的还是在做工
上班的我制服还没穿上就想着放工了
又是一天平平淡淡的在岗位上消耗时间
我的工作何时变得如此的平淡无味呢??
我其实并没有很喜欢在这里工作了
东西越变越复杂
已经不是我要那那样一般了
我被分到一个永远都是自己一个人做工的地方
偶尔人来人去的我才比较热闹些
啊不然一天到晚就只能对着电脑傻笑
越来越无聊了
越来越demotivated了
越来越无趣了
找不到一样事情让我留下来了
怎么办???
终于我放工的时间到了
就直接驱车到表姐家去
她们家今晚有steamboat
还可以看B仔
那坏蛋B仔真的是让人又爱又恨的说!!!!!!!
那个不癫不废的表姐今天玩点新玩意儿了咯
她竟然给我玩起“白须公”
我有够顶她不顺的咯
连B仔都忍不住要给她吃巴掌了呢
之后就是开台的时候咯
我扎了一脚
还喝了2大杯冷冷的红酒
爽爆!!!!!
之间闹了很多很好笑的笑话
我都快要飚泪了
我喜欢这样的家人粘在一起玩的感觉
因为只有这样
真的让我好暖心哦
我就是喜欢这样的家庭聚会
我们3点多才回家
到家都4点了
累跨了我们整家人
一觉睡天亮
安安咯



家庭聚会万岁^^
元宵快乐

Sunday, 5 February 2012

a month

到了今天
又一个月没有更新过我的部落格了
今天就突然想来更新更新
新年也就这样的过完了咯
我也生病了
最新的计划就是本小姐要出新车了咯
几时呢就还不确定
但我想尽快
还有还有
我要去纹身!!!
和傻婆们去旅行
就这样短短先吧
我一定会继续更新的

Thursday, 5 January 2012

差一点

一直很想见的那个人
我昨天看见了
才发现其实我真的很想念他
当他经过我身边的时候我是多么的想冲上前去拥抱他
还好我没有
他对着我微笑的路过
隔着一道玻璃门
我无法触碰他
短短的几秒对我来说真的一点都不够
他走了
他要的笑容我也给了
剩下的是我无止境的眼泪
我宁愿我没有见到他
因为见到他只是让我的思念加深
就连旁人都问
“怎么你的样子好像很想念他似的,你们很久没见了吗???”
我没有回答

放工后和sansan去pandan indah那里糖水
我们聊了很多很多
我也想了很多很多
之后我们就开车去pasar malam
很久没有逛夜市了
我们去了康乐那一个很长的夜市
买了一件曼可爱的衣服
新年的第一件衣服
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈啊哈哈哈哈哈哈
之后我们就到咖啡馆吃晚餐
回到家后他打来聊天了
和他聊了45分钟我哭了整整45分钟
“那些东西要记得来干什么”
“你不要再傻了,面对吧.... ”
“我们怎样也到不了我们原本想象的我们”
“暂停会让你我都好”
........................................
更多更多我完全不想要听的话
够了
真的够了
我真的无法再听下去了
我成全你
是你要的开始
也是你要的结束
我会努力的配合
毫无保留的配合你编制的故事
这是你要了结局
可是
答应过我会在我需要人的时候你一定会是第一个出现的人
*我是你的老公,你的男友,你的朋友,你的知己,你的倾听着*
这些都是你说的ho???
那么现在算什么?????
我不过只想要当我面对所有压力的时候
你是在我身边的那一位
而且这也是你答应过我的
我忘了
承诺不能相信的
我不断的想我到底要怎样让他后悔他昨晚和我说的一切话
我真的想过了结自己
我想要让他内疚一辈子
他一辈子也不会忘了他自己曾经是怎样让一个爱着他的女子受伤害
让他内心永远后悔他所说的
我真的是这么想着的
差一点
差一点我就真的不在了
这一次
我没有让自己受伤
只是心碎了
不完整了
需要时间来痊愈
他要我不要恨他
我现在真的很恨他
不是因为得不到他
而是最后他和我说的那些话
不止让我很受伤
且让我对一切都麻木了
我已经没有感觉了
只是想要赶快离开这里
忘掉这里我和他的一切一切
就当作我的梦做了一年之长
好一个梦
我还是没有清醒
我真的白目得可以
我真的很羡慕你能说放就放
说忘就忘
我只能说
我做不到!!!!!!!!!

今天我还能在这里打部落
代表我还活着
真的一点也没有伤害到我自己
只不过被人家伤了我的心
还要往伤口上撒盐呢
痛不欲生
现在的我很好
我会在你们的面前戴上微笑的面具
我会的
希望你们不要拆穿我脸上的假笑容
我会在此答应你们
我会有一天
真正的微笑的
会有一天的


我还是会微笑的
我会的
我很坚强但却脆弱
我活着
雯之心声